Ghost Of You

It will take only couple of years to complete this two decades of melancholic atmosphere, that was the time apparently i wed with your ghost, ghastly of losing you again. Sometimes you came sneaking like a shadow in every corner of my life, but I manage to grasp your glimpse by end corner of my sight, its alright dear, loser like me ..only deserve the ghost. but anyhow ..whole lot of time you came into my dream ..there are some sort of saying that our soul can meet each other in the world of dream, but things only can possibly happen after either one of the soul had been rest out of body, or both soul had left their body doesnt matter who has been released first. To meet you again in this physical realm is like experiencing uninvented moment, couldnt think what i'm suppose to do, what i'm suppose to say, because it has never been planned before. Oh how good it is if you really gone and let me live with your ghost adamantly. Dont want to give you a chance to murder this feeling again, like the same you did in that bloody wedding night, moment that cannot be erase in this poor state of mind, but yet been mourns until this soul soon be rest. Sure you dont realise about this, I bet you dont. And now you stand still in front of me with the motionless and giving me that damn innocent look like nothing happen for 18th year of suffering intolerable agony of mine. There you are... please pinch me and let me know that this is not a dream. "Enjoy the view eh!" suddenly my 7th state of dream interrupted. In such gigantic cubicle labyrinth of book-rack, probably more 30X30 feets width and 50 feets heights ..damn i can picture it now. I try so hard to scan every corner of wooden rack and even every bookname that i could remember in this short lost memory problem of mine, try hard to rebuilt in perfect architecture in my castle of dream. Then you my dear, will permanently inhabitant there waiting for me. But dont you worry, i meant it for your ghost. And for real you, just fly wherever you may wander, but please dont take this my pathetic memory of you with. This is all my wish.